2NE1 - It Hurts (아파) MV [HD]

Worthless

I am so tired of being taken for granted
I wish things were better
I'm talked to like a dog.

Momma you can be so mean.

Ba ba black sheep
Have you any manners?
I bite my tongue for the sake of sanity.

I'd ask you for $1 in quarters
But you'd hold it against me
I was just asking for change.

Will time make it better?
Or
Will you continue to abuse me?

Count on me
To be there for you,
But it's hard to get reciprocation from you.

Family isn't what it use to be
Hanging on to loving memories
Praying they don't fade away.

I just want things to get better...

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My progress on slimming down!

Ok y'all! since i have been improving on my eating habits and adding more fruits and veggies to my diet as well/ I have been slimming down which is good b/c it will show my doctor that i am trying to get better. The goal weight is 170. I'm not there yet, but i am on my way! I guess my weightloss is notceable too b/c my b/f has been noticing and telling me. And I have asked a few ppl. I go for the weigh in on the 4th of march. Wish me luck you guys b/c I don't want to be at risk for diabetes.
What's crazy about all of this is that I am the smallest in my family and I am the only one that really needs to lose weight. Everyone who has seen me in person wonders where am i gonna lose all this weight at. They tell me I am gonna be a toothpick. I'm just hoping I don't lose my booty! NOT THE JUNK IN THE TRUNK!!!!!! LOL.
Since i can see the progress i am motivated to keep it off and lose more. Hopefully I will hear good news in the future.

Quick Poem of Jumbled feelings

I'm suppose to grin and bare it
As I watch a mother
Afraid of her daughter
Afraid to take a stand
Wear her crown
Be a parent.
Favoritism is for fools
She wears the egg on her face
Smiling
She'll cry later on
When no one is around
Or to her familiar tissues.
I'm suppose to smile
Even though I feel used
The black sheep
misunderstood but reliable
My name
It get's called more times than minutes
are clocked
Damn...what has my family become
This doesn't feel like home
Where is it
misplaced or evolved?
I envy those
That have good relationships with their mothers
Why wasn't I lucky
Will my child be distant from me too?
i'll do better to be closer... to them
Why should i smile
And accept that, that's just they way people are
When change is constant
And every action has a reaction
you slap me
i slap you
and i'll learn to never trust you again.
How is this fair?
When did it become ok to tolerate
abuse from loved ones
I'll never pass on this pain.