Choice words for a Lover

To me...
Your waters are always tested
"There's nothing to worry about..."
I'd believe you more --

If you stood by your words
Like a butress
Supporting each letter.

But what you say
Isn't always what your actions give
So what should I believe?

A long way from a gentleman
Please conduct yourself like a man
I'm waiting--

To see when your words,
And actions,
Match what I hear and see.

You have a good heart,
but it's in the wrong place;
If you don't know better.

Random Ramblings

No poetry today guys...I think i should do a bit more than poetry on here anyways. I am much more than a poet after all. I already have a blog where I am very candid, but i guess i could share a few things every now and then. Or even write about a few topics that come to mind.

Today I am gonna talk about myself and how I really should have been paying a bit more attention to myself. My life wasn't an easy one. I'm sure someone had it worst off than me but mine had its moments. I had to grow up fast and in some cases no matter how i felt I had to keep pushing forward b/c i had to do what was best for me. I was very mature for my age. And even now as I am 25 yrs old. I feel like I am still more mature than  my peers. However I still have a lot to learn.

Since most of the drama in my life is gone, I now have time to pay attention to myself. And oooooooh boy has it been interesting. I have been paying attention to how i interact with others and  even in my own relationship. Sometimes i dislike how observant I can be at times. I am a strong person and lately I have just been feeling like i am not like how I use to be.

I've come this far and now I am in a slump. What am I suppose to be learning about myself this time around?

Lady of the Night

In this darkness...
I am home
Embracing solitude.

The moon welcomes me
Warmed by it's glow
I am free to wander.

The world is sleeping
I watch it,
And admire.

In this quiet I can reflect
Walking with the wind
Existing without judgment.

At this time
The world takes me as I am
I exist in peace.

Nothing, Nothing, Nothing.

I may seem cut and dry,
But I am that shade of gray,
The compromise between black and white.

Nothing's ever simple
In a world ruled by the broom,
Constantly swept under the rug.

What would you do
If you knew?
What could you do?

Nothing is the easy way out,
It's the bliss that feeds ignorance
Nothing treats me like I don't matter.

My hue is ignored,
Can't wash me down with water'
You'll need a stronger drink.

Not so empty words,
Heavier than you care to admit,
I'd like to see you try...

But i know you'll do nothing.

Old Flames

Dying ember know your place,
That spark is no longer,
Lost your will to flame.

Time's curse,
Your hesitance,
He was there when you didn't want him.

Old flames die,
It's for a reason,
To be something new and not the same.

Old flames die,
You had your season,
It went and so should your feelings.

To you, he's safe...
That's why you linger,
Unable to accept our love.

What happened to being a friend?
The past is set,
You cannot mend.

Walk with maturity,
Be your ashes,
Don't look back.

Exist without regret.