Defense Mechanism

This is the great purge
I want to go back to my old self
Before u made a fool out of me.

Became a slave to my emotions
They are ruining me
And more grief than a blessing.

I was stronger when I was like the wind
I'd say goodbye to all the boys,
And silence the noise.

No looking back
My feelings were put on the shelf
And my life was on track.

Kept moving towards a good man
Now I got him,
And I don't know how to act.

My stoic person decided to care
Somewhere in the mix
I lost my strength.

Starting from scratch
To battle new pain
I'm on my own;

It seems this battle is my own.
If I knew what to feel?
I'd be on that path.

Hearing heartbreak
I build a wall
Bracing for impact.

I'll wait patiently
Although you assure me that,
That day will never come.

Green-eyed Monster

Burning at the stake
Consumed by wrathful flames
I feel it taking over me.

My emerald eyes fixated
Searching for a future where they don't exist
Maybe then there would be 1 less worry.

I'm in no position to talk
So i bite my tongue,
And my thoughts scream loudly.

I clench my fist
My claws pierce my skin
My territorial blood drenches the flames.

Out of the fire
I am my fear
The B*tch is here.