I am definately loving the new look of my page. It definately fits my mood and situation. I feel so powerless right now. What can I possibly do right now to make a difference and prevent all this? It's becoming quite obvious that someone doesn't want me to be in love right now, and they aren't happy for me. It also seems like it is more than one person doing this. I could be wrong.
I am amazed and terrified that someone is out there with a strong desire to see me single. And the fact that they will do anything to make it happen is something to be worried about. They are not only trying to hurt me, they are also willing to hurt ppl i care about in the process.
What could possibly be gained from ending my relationship? Sure i would be heart broken and bitter, but that doesn't mean I am gonna run into their arms looking for comfort. That doesn't mean I am gonna be with them. And I won't stay depressed forever. What will this accomplish?
What inspired this craziness? What type of closure could I offer to end all this?
So many questions and nobody is brave enough to answer. All of this behind the scenes sh*t for what? so you can do your dirt and smile in my face. Be that shoulder I can cry on...while all the while you are happy that i am sad.
Here is my question! WHERE IN THE BLUE F*CK OF ALL F*CKS IS KARMA?!?!?!?! This situation definately calls for devine intervention and nothing is happening!!!!!!!! ummmm...why?????????? It's gonna be almost a year of this crap and it hasn't stopped yet. This person is taking time out of their day to do this sh*t. Strike them now Lord!
Well it would be nice if you could....
On top of that I feel bad for hurting my boo. Well I did right along with them. I gave them the amno, they pulled the trigger. And even though he has forgiven me, I have not forgiven myself. And I think I am taking this harder than him. This is what happens when i care about someone else's feelings. I ruined his first day of school experience with my shinans. Eventually I will forgive myself though.
So much drama in few hours it's a mess. Jesus take my wheel and give me a reason to relax. What's a girl to do when all this drama keeps happening?
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