Here

I am human
This Fragile heart needs walls
Running from my pain,
But it's trapped inside.

It grabs hold of me
Like an abusive lover does a spouse
My other arm waves for freedom
It doesn't see me.

It's safe to say I made this Hell
Trying to run from you
Seeking understanding in my sleep
It doesn't hear me.

Thrown against these walls
"Face your fear!"
Please, I'd rather not imagine your eyes
This pain has a face.

You look just like him
Hurt like him too
My tongue is bleeding
Because i keep biting down.

I'd feel better if I say it,
But my morals want me to be a good person
I want to keep my Halo,
But I am tired of hurting myself.

So with a bloody smirk
I look at you
My soggy eyes justify the means
I say it proudly...

I hate you.

So vile and yet so freeing
I won't let this rule my life
"He'll suffer if I do"
I won't lose him over thoughts of you.

I know i'll never have an apology
So i'll stop wanting
My satisfaction is for me to give
My walls come down

You don't look so strong
Soon you'll be weak just like him
Eventually forgotten
Loved him once, but no more.

And that's ok...

Beyond this point lies my happiness
It's time I start walking towards it
Your grip is slipping
It's time to let go.

Baggage cease to exist
I want to walk without you
It's ok to feel this way
Hurt people do.

I choose not to dwell another day
Let this be where I leave it
My pain has a home,
And it's no longer with me.