Smirk

I never speak highly of myself,
but maybe i should...
Just for change.

I forget myself from time to time
Neglecting who really matters
Busy swallowing the pain.

I am wandering
I am wandering
Trying to learn more about me.

I look in the mirror,
And stare past my reflection
I don't like seeing him cry.

Yet i never dry his tears
I let them fall
Collecting them for reasons to bitter.

I never write about me
It's never for me,
And that's why I feel empty.

I am a product of abandonment
My parents forgot i was their's
An orphan on the outside looking in.

Mama can't you see?
Daddy don't you know?
You helped make me this way.

At night I wonder...
Why do I go un-loved?
A question that goes unaswered.

It sits at home
Alone; Waiting,
But you never come.

I look in the mirror,
And glance at my reflection
I don't like seeing him cry.

I'm sorry
Please forgive
It was always easy to never face you.

But you kept a constant stare
Always looking through me
At my truth.

We deserve to smile...