Defense Mechanism

This is the great purge
I want to go back to my old self
Before u made a fool out of me.

Became a slave to my emotions
They are ruining me
And more grief than a blessing.

I was stronger when I was like the wind
I'd say goodbye to all the boys,
And silence the noise.

No looking back
My feelings were put on the shelf
And my life was on track.

Kept moving towards a good man
Now I got him,
And I don't know how to act.

My stoic person decided to care
Somewhere in the mix
I lost my strength.

Starting from scratch
To battle new pain
I'm on my own;

It seems this battle is my own.
If I knew what to feel?
I'd be on that path.

Hearing heartbreak
I build a wall
Bracing for impact.

I'll wait patiently
Although you assure me that,
That day will never come.