Progress

"And then it comes to me...like an epiphany."

Sometimes the best lessons take the longest to learn. For the longest time I was waiting and moving in the direction of getting over the pain I went through with "Damn Fool". I have been living my life and I am in a good place. But yesterday I noticed I still had his number in my phone. I don't call it but if by chance that dummy ever gets my number and calls I can see it and ignore it. However I don't see the point in keeping his number in my phone. It serves no purpose. So I deleted it yesterday. I also deleted photos that I stored away of him. -No! I never looked at them. I put them there when I started my attempt to get over him. I put them somewhere I don't check often. Like once every 3 or months if i remember.

I imagined them as little ties to him that I was cutting. I did it and I'm not looking back. This is where I wanted to be in regards to the situation with "Damn Fool". I had hoped we could have been friends, but that didn't work out. But more importantly I wanted to be done. i didn't want to harbour those painful feelings anymore. I wanted to be done with the situation. I wanted to be another day wiser, richer, and stronger from the experience. I wanted to be happy again. And now...That's where I am.

Despite losing some friends along the way, and being stalked. I am better off now then I was back then when I was hurting. I did this on my own. I didn't use a man to rebound, and I didn't become a whore (not for a lack of trying though... lol). I tackled my feelings head on and now they can rest. It's over.

I won't look back. And I have no hopes of being with "Damn Fool" or talking to him ever again beyond a civil conversation if we ever bumped into each other by chance. The past is in the past, and I am in the present working on my future.  I finally have my closure. And as always I had to give it to myself.